love is a poor man's food...

When you came to me with your bad dreams and your fears
It was easy to see that you'd been crying
Seems like everywhere you turn catastrophe it reigns
But who really profits from the dying
I could hold you in my arms
I could hold you forever
I could hold you in my arms
I could hold you in my arms forever

When you kissed my lips with my mouth so full of questions
It's my worried mind that you quiet
Place your hands on my face
Close my eyes and say
Love is a poor man's food
Don't prophesize

I could hold you in my arms
I could hold you forever
And I could hold you in my arms
I could hold you forever

So now we see how it is
This fist begets the spear
Weapons of war
Symptoms of madness
Don't let your eyes refuse to see
Don't let your ears refuse to hear
Or you ain't never going to shake this sense of sadness
I could hold you in my arms
I could hold on forever
And I could hold you in my arms
I could hold forever

Thanks Andrew David Barrett

RIP O2

Otis Jr. passed away roughly an hour ago. RIP pretty girl!

w00t

So my Aunt Tammy has been designing personalized double walled cups that do not sweat *using her cricut machine and vinyl*...I've been posting on facebook to advertise for her (Personalized Cup Photo Album) racking up the orders and such. So I had a girl I know from Sikeston tell me kinda roughly what she wanted and gave me the go ahead to "make it cute"...so this is the end result....

yay? >(

I hate when people fuck up my routine. The OFM from TN office decided to break the rules and in turn I get to modify one of our policies! YAY... >(

do you have any dreams you'd like to sell?

Okay so I am the worst about recalling my dreams...to the point that I am convinced I don't dream at all but we all know that's not true! Well the past few nights I've been recalling that I've dreamt but I just cannot grasp the content in the dream :(
Last night I *know* that I had 3 separate dreams because when I woke around 6am to tinkle I was almost reading aloud my dream to memorize it so that I could relay it later. No such luck here it is 20 til 9am and it's vanished. I do recall that I started to dream more after I went back to sleep and before it was time to get up for work.


I know one thing, Caruthersville is about to get stomped by thunderstorms!! Wish me luck :-)
I've already called Emilio and told him to relocate the kittens and if he hears sirens to take them to the hallway and stay there. Plus to text me if he loses power. The office's power went off for about 30 seconds already.

weekends! ahhh

I hate monday...with a passion *spits* but it *IS* almost 5:00...so I will relax a little bit. My weekend was meh yet busy! Friday night I don't recall what happened whatsoever except sleep! Saturday I woke up full of energy. Flea powdered the entire house (again) and locked Tiger up in the office. Saturday night was kinda uneventful. Shower, movie, sleep...Sunday I swept, vacuumed and mopped all the flea powder up throughout the house then cleaned out my car AND vacuumed it. Headed to Moms (45 miles away) to grill with Emilio and just unwind with family. Had burgers, chicken & Italian sausage (which of the three did *I* consume??), with baked beans & potato salad (compliments of yours truly...E cooked the meat). It was delish! Came home, messed with Tiger a little bit, got ready for bed then decided to give Tiger ONE more look over. Sure glad I did. Between the hours of midnight and 2am she had her first set of kittens. 2 of em! A black tabby-ish marked one with a masked face and an orange tabby with a white dot dead center of her back. They're soooo adorable (see previous post!) so now it's Monday (as prev. stated) and I am so damn sleepy!!! Work itself today was pretty blah. I put off a lot of crap. I've been "working" on the monthly newsletter all day ;-)

holla!

Tiger & the two kitties!! < 3

Contractions have started...

Here's Cookie....and Oj (Otis Jr.)...

and mama cat finally settles in for the night letting the two kittens nurse! <3

grrr

Ok so here at the office, when you are "on-call" you pick up & deliver mail to the post office daily (twice). On friday you go in the morning if its your last day and whoever takes over goes in the afternoon. Today was my last day and Bertha went on-call and therefore would have taken the mail this afternoon before 4:30. She decided to leave early (around 3-ish) and told Tammy I could take the mail since she took it yesterday afternoon for me. Did she bother to inform me? Fuck no! So now it's 4:50 and todays mail won't go out on time. Real nice, moron!!!!!

ung! (is that a sound?)

TGIMFF!!!!!!


I wanna go home, strip to absolutely nothing, crawl between the cool sheets and pass the fuck out. I am so damn sleepy!!!! No clue why but yeah. On another note, I'm stoked yet nervous about Tiger having kittens...soon!! any day now practically!

a lifetime burning with you...

There's something wrong in her world today
She screams it loud but just won't say it
It never was her strongest point to hurry up or wait.
Now it's all been said and done
A preachers daughter a devils son
Her favorite color a day alone
No smile on her face

and you were wrong...
and you were wrong


I don't believe I failed you
Are your lies still coming true?
Do you still think that better days are gone?
After all the things we've been through
Years so hard to lose
Give me a life of half love, half hope, half truth
Or a lifetime burning with you

All the things he said he'd got
Seemed so big but don't mean much
He spends his days just praying to God
Or feeling in his way.
But no one saw the broken heart
Or even knew the day it started
No one thought he was good enough
Except for you...

I don't believe I failed you
Are your lies still coming true?
Do you still think that better days are gone?
After all the things we've been through
Years so hard to lose
Give me a life of half love, half hope, half truth
Or a lifetime burning with you

Your gonna miss those things you're giving away
You need to hold out - you're gonna break down.
You need to find your way back to the start
Who cares what they say its still your heart.
...Your heart.

There's something wrong in her world today
The one she loved she threw away
Still see it on her face when she's got a smile to fake

All those things he said he'd got
He cashed them in it just wasn't enough
To buy back or start to replace the one he loved

And you were wrong...
I was wrong

'Cause I don't believe I failed you
Are your lies still coming true?
Do you still think that better days are gone?
After all the things we've been through
Years so hard to lose
Give me a life of half love, half hope, half truth
Cause I'll take a life of half love, half hope, half truth
Or a lifetime burning

fucking really????

I cannot stand to have my Office MGR question me about something that ive already answered to the appropriate person.
Example:

Tammy: We need a worker in Morehouse.
Me: Another one?
Tammy: [Aides name excluded] is covering [Clients name excluded]...
Me: This is her last week the new girl is training tomorrow
Tammy: Bertha just acted clueless
Me: Well she knows because I told her earlier...

Tammy goes down the hall to question Bertha...I can hear Bertha's voice raised so I follow to give her a friendly reminder of the conversation earlier...

to which *I* then get yelled at and told to leave her office because I asked could she shut up and actually LISTEN before calling me a liar! She is telling me that Stephanie (from Sikeston office) called and asked did she have more hours to go with the current hours being offered with the Morehouse position. I then tried to explained to Bertha that that was BEFORE I informed her of the worker who would be training Wed, Thurs & Friday and was called a liar (again!) and told to leave her office! :o oh HELL no she didn't. I apparently pissed her off so bad she left work 20 minutes early. Oh fuckin' well!!!!!!!  And yes, I am fired up!

ugh

My last dentist appointment for 6 months this morning! woo-woo! So, the 64-billion dollar question is this, if I am such a smart assed sarcastic bish, who actually LOOKS for the same wit in a guy, why does it piss me off when Emilio is like that?! It literally drives me up a frikkin wall with rage sometimes (not always!). Yet here I am at work for 2 hours and I'm already clock watching, ready to go home and see his face. I cant even pinpoint what happened, how we both changed and grew up in the few months we were broken up, but we did. Does he still piss me off? Sure, otherwise what kinda fun would that be? He actually laughs at me when I'm angry, which makes me more so but whatever lol. I just love him. It's always been him and I'm starting to trust that he was right 2 1/2 years ago...it's always gonna be him :-)

I'm too impatient for this junk

So I claimed to have finally started the cycle, wrong! Seems my body wants to play the tease game! 3 whole days of nothing but faintness so tomorrow I will technically be a week late since I've not actually FULLY started my period. I do not like this one little bit. No cramping either. Meh. FML.

JFC

Summary - Fleas are taking over my life!! I've done flea collars, frontline drops, pesticide outside & flea powder inside as well. Flea combing her several times a day too! This morning getting ready for work I picked SEVENTEEN fleas off of my ankles! Co-worker said it sounds like sand fleas because normally fleas are not that agressive. Especially considering before my vacation I had none and now my house seems to be infested *sobbing* And to make it worse today is going to be my first full on period [.] day, hooray! Tomorrow night is Relay for Life downtown can't wait to go! Saturday I plan on relaxing by the pool most of the afternoon out on Hwy D with prayers I don't go crispy like I did in Florida!

this is it!

Not sure why I chose a Monday, the week of my period, to not only quit smoking cold turkey but to start a new diet as well! the diet is okay, no cigarette is not :( Good thing about it is that I got a water bottle and I plan on chugging the hell out of it day & night. Not only will it keep me full [ish] but it will rid my body of those nasty toxins right? LOL! So far today I've had 2 cups of coffee w/ creamer, a toasted bagel w/ spray butter [0 cal] and sugar free strawberry jam followed by crystal light in my water bottle! A grand total of 210 calories and I am allowed 1,165 daily in order to be at 145lbs by October 7, 2011 [according to Lose It app on my iPhone]. Wish me luck! I am about to bury myself in work & water as a huge distraction of the gnawing ache to smoke!

see my cape??

Why do the people of this office think I am superwoman? I did nothing BUT fucking Humana enrollments, changes & cancellations yesterday and I am not even finished, plus I have 2 new hires in here doing training AND paperwork, it's the end of a pay period which means I have 3 offices worth of new hire payroll information to get to the payroll dept. and everything else that is a daily duty piled on top. There's a specific office worker who loves to pile it on and if she doesn't get off my ass back I am going to pop a cap in hers!